70 Years in a Mysterious Pattern
Thankful jubilarian dedicates the
Recollecting to the guests who have been
greeting him since
Jubilee celebration at Tallinn Dome
At the beginning of the introduction I
would like to pay one debt before my correspondents.
I confirm, that I have started to
dream about hermit delight. In the course of training the aware privacy I have
reached in contemplations with my blessed tutors to the temptation of magna
To understand better the mysterious
heavenly guiding, what has been governing me always, I need time to understand
our Primus Patre better through the contemplation practice. This way I counted
myself to reserve from several duties at the place. Blessingly my bishop Msgr.
Philippe Jourdan, as legal successor of bishop Albert (1201.a.D.), agreed to
take the sacred leadership of Conventus Terra Mariana (CTM) to himself, as
Protector-Bishop CTM. During the Easter 2017.a.D. I became a veteran -
Protector Generalis Emeritus CTM and OAM. Since then I have been dedicated to reflections
through practical communication contemplation practice as an obedient student
of our Father.
Unfortunately, contemplation doctrine
establishes the precondition default command. For me it is a serious peacockery
temptation ordeal. Contemplation training, as most meditation teachings, starts
with spiritual purification - good starting to You aswell. I would like to take
the chance and ask forgiveness from all pen-friends, towards whom I have been
mistaken accidentally, but who have suffered due to me.
Let us pray for sinful me, as I pray
for You. This way our souls become lighter and spirit cleaner.
It is interesting to experience how
the early achieved self-love satisfaction thanks to my hero genes has helped
me. Of-course blessing was dedication to love, where more love sufficed to ore,
than for my temporary being - opened inanimate eternity richness.
The high blessing given to my Family
Federation (Arendia Elita von Wolsky FF) for re-establishing Conventus Terra
Mariana, I took without vanity and passionlessly, just because of the early
satisfied self-love. On the day, when I felt that my work was done, I put this
into the shelf as ready product, that the next generations could use it if Our
Father wants it.
Why the high responsibility of the
re-establishment of the Convent was put on me among more dignified? Did Our
Father need his humble student's clean conscientious solution not motivated
from ego? Aren't the paths of Our Lord this not explained? His everlasting
grace I have been feeling in everything and everywhere in everything and
everywhere now and always. I learnt to keep my head empty from my own
knowledge, to be more open to Creator's knowledge, that all created could
belong solely to him as much as possible.
One heavenly involvement afflicts me
with the obligation to rise a saint I cannot even think about this theme. It is
scary to notice how my close have discovered my prophet capability. I am so
tired from my spirit and physique already, that I have been praying Our Father
that he would take me to him, if he feels it possible. At the same time I
experienced at once how I gained a new quality in communication with heavenly through
Wonderfully easy became at once, as I
had put down those lines for You as confession - let us be the load divided!
Thankfully I remind, how I gained the
heavenly guardianship through the intercessions of sacred of Terra Mariana,
which invigorated me and lead me not to Fatherland due to the circumstances to
find better life. Five times we prolonged the dates of leaving, as I convinced decidedly
that according to statutory legality my escape from Terra Mariana could mean
betrayal according to all features. Extremely deep bow to Ordo Altaria Mariana Priest-Knights
In faith and fidelity before my Bishop
Msgr. Philippe Jourdan and my Tallinn congregation priest Father Alfonso Di
I believe that a reader able to go
deep, understands and forgives my self-conciousness due to the adoption of the
rules of the new egregor. Even in Italy in the beginning of the summer, where
my spirit especially brightens always, did not bring the knowledge this time,
how to write and how to handle sworn materials at all.
I ask additional time, to learn
external communication in peace and privacy. Until I do not have clarity about
my publishing mandate in my new quality, I kindly ask to understand me and.
In conclusion, we can continually
confirm that although higher of this reality is everlasting reality, this
ongoing reality is the irrefutable stage of eternity for us. Here I reminded
Confucius everything is not as it seems, but also not different. Let us
agree, that difficult, even not possible is to interpret verbal in primitive
human language concepts of different realities. Music is for sure more exact
carrier of everlasting knowledge. Unfortunately, I am not an instrumentalist,
otherwise I would play You something. For the fortune Eugen, one of my sons, studies
composing music at the local academy. I hope that he will study to express
Creator's creation more exact than his only human-language father.
With this beautiful promising thought,
I would like to conclude the contemplation. Even if I knew that I could talk
more about my vision in the new quality, I could not see sense in it here. Everything
is under control of our Almighty (KĆµiksuseĆ¼lese) Father and everything that he
makes, is well done. Let us come to terms that this is right and good. Everything
has unexpectedly become so simple in my new egregor, that I could doubt in my
mental health, if I had no need to go through a profound medical control
because of the prolongation of my weapon permission among that psychiatric. Everything
is in norm, as always, only the spirit is brighter as ever. In pray for
achieving better spiritual quality for all of us.
In loving esteem your brother, Our
Father's humble student, together with my lady