70 Years in a Mysterious Pattern
Thankful
jubilarian dedicates the
forthcoming
Recollecting to the
guests who have been
greeting him since
Jubilee
celebration at Tallinn Dome
Church
http://www.terramariana.ee/web/en/?Chronicle:Year_2017
At the
beginning of the introduction I
would like to pay one debt before my
correspondents.
I confirm, that I have started to
dream about hermit delight. In the course of training the aware privacy I
have
reached in contemplations with my blessed tutors to the temptation of
magna
schema.
To understand better the mysterious
heavenly guiding, what has been governing me always, I need time to
understand
our Primus Patre better through the contemplation practice. This way I
counted
myself to reserve from several duties at the place. Blessingly my bishop
Msgr.
Philippe Jourdan, as legal successor of bishop Albert (1201.a.D.),
agreed to
take the sacred leadership of Conventus Terra Mariana (CTM) to himself,
as
Protector-Bishop CTM. During the Easter 2017.a.D. I became a veteran -
Protector Generalis Emeritus CTM and OAM. Since then I have been
dedicated to reflections
through practical communication contemplation practice as an obedient
student
of our Father.
Unfortunately, contemplation doctrine
establishes the precondition default command. For me it is a serious
peacockery
temptation ordeal. Contemplation training, as most meditation teachings,
starts
with spiritual purification – good starting to You aswell. I would like
to take
the chance and ask forgiveness from all pen-friends, towards whom I have
been
mistaken accidentally, but who have suffered due to me.
Let us pray for sinful me, as I pray
for You. This way our souls become lighter and spirit cleaner.
It is
interesting to experience how
the early achieved self-love satisfaction thanks to my hero genes has
helped
me. Of-course blessing was dedication to love, where more love sufficed
to ore,
than for my temporary being – opened inanimate eternity richness.
The high
blessing given to my Family
Federation (Arendia Elita von Wolsky FF) for re-establishing Conventus
Terra
Mariana, I took without vanity and passionlessly, just because of the
early
satisfied self-love. On the day, when I felt that my work was done, I
put this
into the shelf as ready product, that the next generations could use it
if Our
Father wants it.
Why the high
responsibility of the
re-establishment of the Convent was put on me among more dignified? Did
Our
Father need his humble student’s clean conscientious solution not
motivated
from ego? Aren’t the paths of Our Lord this not explained? His
everlasting
grace I have been feeling in everything and everywhere in everything and
everywhere now and always. I learnt to keep my head empty from my own
knowledge, to be more open to Creator’s knowledge, that all created
could
belong solely to him as much as possible.
One heavenly
involvement afflicts me
with the obligation to rise a saint – I cannot even think about this
theme. It is
scary to notice how my close have discovered my prophet capability. I am
so
tired from my spirit and physique already, that I have been praying Our
Father
that he would take me to him, if he feels it possible. At the same time I
experienced at once how I gained a new quality in communication with
heavenly through
lovely understanding.
Wonderfully
easy became at once, as I
had put down those lines for You as confession – let us be the load
divided!
Thankfully I
remind, how I gained the
heavenly guardianship through the intercessions of sacred of Terra
Mariana,
which invigorated me and lead me not to Fatherland due to the
circumstances to
find better life. Five times we prolonged the dates of leaving, as I
convinced decidedly
that according to statutory legality my escape from Terra Mariana could
mean
betrayal according to all features. Extremely deep bow to Ordo Altaria
Mariana Priest-Knights
and Bishops.
In faith and
fidelity before my Bishop
Msgr. Philippe Jourdan and my Tallinn congregation priest Father Alfonso
Di
Giovanni.
I believe that a
reader able to go
deep, understands and forgives my self-conciousness due to the adoption
of the
rules of the new egregor. Even in Italy in the beginning of the summer,
where
my spirit especially brightens always, did not bring the knowledge this
time,
how to write and how to handle sworn materials at all.
I ask
additional time, to learn
external communication in peace and privacy. Until I do not have clarity
about
my publishing mandate in my new quality, I kindly ask to understand me
and.
In conclusion,
we can continually
confirm that although higher of this reality is everlasting reality,
this
ongoing reality is the irrefutable stage of eternity for us. Here I
reminded
Confucius – everything is not as it seems, but also not different. Let
us
agree, that difficult, even not possible is to interpret verbal in
primitive
human language concepts of different realities. Music is for sure more
exact
carrier of everlasting knowledge. Unfortunately, I am not an
instrumentalist,
otherwise I would play You something. For the fortune Eugen, one of my
sons, studies
composing music at the local academy. I hope that he will study to
express
Creator’s creation more exact than his only human-language
father.
With this
beautiful promising thought,
I would like to conclude the contemplation. Even if I knew that I could
talk
more about my vision in the new quality, I could not see sense in it
here. Everything
is under control of our Almighty (Kõiksuseülese) Father and everything
that he
makes, is well done. Let us come to terms that this is right and good.
Everything
has unexpectedly become so simple in my new egregor, that I could doubt
in my
mental health, if I had no need to go through a profound medical control
because of the prolongation of my weapon permission among that
psychiatric. Everything
is in norm, as always, only the spirit is brighter as ever. In pray for
achieving better spiritual quality for all of us.
In loving
esteem your brother, Our
Father’s humble student, together with my lady
Marika Katarina
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